Hey,

Im at Singapore airport for transit before going to Indonesia.

Suck, 1 hour delay. However, I have free Internet to write some things. Blogging is a pretty cool solution , lah!

God, the earthquake and tsunami in Indonesia seem a big problem.

But I do not worry. When my time is up, my time is up!!!!

Will be blogging again, for sure...

America is so irresistable!!!

Hopefully I will have the Visa!!!!!!

Praying!!!

Again, I was in Cambodia in 1 week. Only long day meetings and going around small Phnom Penh but I love it. Something old, dirty, poor but nice, friendly, peaceful.

I missed AngkorWat this time but I visited this wonderful wonder some time back. Will be there again definitely...

Getting along the riverside and observing the Royal palace at night with thousands of light pulps was so great!!!

The darkness of life, I think it is secret...

Look into the small hole on the wooden wall, I will tell you something that I see...

What if you know too much about someone's secret and of course, it is all darkness?

Just for example, suddenly you know your dad has an affair, your best friend is gay, your son gets cancer...

Definitely I know there is a big flame in your head and a big hole in your heart...But life is like that, isnt it?

What can I do? I just face all! Fucking hard but no way...Experience is the best lesson, even though I know not all lesson is easily to be accepted. We are not all brave...But no way, no way, no better way.

Let train our heart to be free from prejudice, mistrust. People all have secrets. And you are not sure how you will be, right??? Dont judge as you are better than them. Look into the mirror, you still have many secrets...

We live in a diversity with different colors and tastes. Let accept what is good for you and for me!!!

Lets talk about Mona Lisa and The Da Vinci Code.

The Mona Lisa is actually a self-portrait by Leonardo as a woman. The androgyny reflects the sacred union of male and female which is implied in the holy union of Jesus and Mary Magdalene. Such parity between the cosmic forces of masculine and feminine has long been a deep threat to the established power of the Church. The name Mona Lisa is actually an anagram for "Amon L'Isa", referring to the father and mother gods of Ancient Egypt (namely Amon and Isis).

Leonardo was homosexual. Is it right that beauty, beautiful minds beautiful hearts beautiful souls beautiful wonders are the harmony of masculine and feminine???

Sounds funny? But it was true to me last night.

An omen of the Yog trip? No, I dun think so. Surely it came from the worriness of health as  the result of 2 weeks taking pills for the danm throat.

What is related to my DEATH? You will be surprised!

I knew exactly when I would leave everything so I...took many photographs. I looked so cheerul with a beaufitul smile (like the smile of my special person- the one I love). Then I passed them onto all the people I know. Also did I ask everyone change my pic on the gravestone every year.

Wow, like a romantic and tearful Korean movie?

Will you note my will if its gonna suddently happen???

Are you afraid of DEATH? Im not!

A night at Sheridan's was rock!

A small impressive place with chairs and tables hustling with each other but everyone still has his own world and... lonesome. We are all lonely objects, aint we?

No worry. As music was fabulous. I might curl my lips when someone turns a country song on (especially a song of 60s, 70s) but in there, I could sit silently with half-closed eyes (eye-wide-shut?). I hate smoking but naturally, I was so forgiving. Maybe the flying smoke and the rock melodies were harmonious!!!

A strange feeling with some old songs "Odd to my family" or "White flag" which made me think of saving money for being there at least once per month ;-)

No need to dress up, just with a pair of flip-flop I could proudly do what I want. No punctilious eyes, no care for appearance. i like simplicity and independence...

Thank you for your beer!!!

1. Fabulous music:

+5 songs every morning with the earphone on the bike. Hip-hop and R&B makes me refresh. Promiscuous, Maneater (Nelly Furtado), Bossy (Kelis), Buttons (The pussy cat dolls). Some rock encourages me not to yawn in 8 hours at work. Imogen Heap is highly recommended now!!!

+ Take a break and sometimes a nap with Again and Again (Jewel), Amore (full album of Andrea Bocelli), Perhaps-perhaps-perhaps (Doris), The King of pain (Alanis and Sting), One (U2 and Mary J)

2. Books:

+ When I need some fun – HOW TO BE GOOD (some things like “having sex with David and with Steven are totally different. With Steven, full of imagination and exploration and the result is…uncertain. With David, let press that and then this button, romantic enough and…useful enough!” Heh heh)

+ When I think Im so stupid – THE WORLD IS FLAT (eh, its BIG. Outsourcing! Flatten World! Work Flow! Blah blah blah) Yawn Yawn Yawn, but…because Im stupid!

+ When I think Im fashionable – THE DA VINCI CODE (no comment. One problem is Im slow. Anyway, Im not a native English speaker!)

3. Movies:

Any types. Oh dear, why have I seen so many gay, les and transgender movies these days? However, they are very very good. Prove it to yourself!

4. Writing:

Its my job! And you have to thank me for what Im writing now. I have two blogs, khakhakha!

5. Quiet time:

Not really often but its useful. Im stronger, and tougher!

6. Sharing:

I think Im useful, at least for some friends. So proud of me!

7. Job

It makes me think Im alive. I earn enough for daily life and saving for traveling purposes.

An acceptable job (hush, it even helps me have time to write some things nonsense like this, heh heh). Watch out, maybe I will feel bored if it still stays the same as it is now!!!

8. Traveling

Cambodia again.

Indonesia (wow, I luv it and cant wait for July. Yeah yeah yeah)

America??? (not too desirable but not too glacial) Just “miss” $80 for the application form…

9. Politic

Surprise? I think its interesting, honestly!

You cant imagine how angry I was when listening to the Ministry of Transportation on TV last night “I have not received any anonymous letters blaming on Bui Tien Dung” Damn!!!

10. Love

Suck!!! Better NO NO NO

Have a good meal, heh heh! Contact me for more information

Why do we spend time, and even money for such this place? Why are Livejournal, Blogspot, Yahoo 360⁰ become so crowded? Are we lonely objects and need more care?

I can hit it off, smile, or laugh with many people but they still see me as a cold-hearted person. Its right. I always try to defence to protect myself. Everyone has the right to keep our own secret...

I have learnt a lot about Quiet time, sharing, changing and I can apply them in my life. I have changed, positively. People see it. I can see it. Sometimes some people even reach me for advices to live in this life, and I can talk like an expertise...But deep from my heart there is still a black hole where I treasure my own world, my grief, my sorrow. How can I trust people to share with them everything in my life? Oh dear, my problems...it is over all moral standards, it is in a vicious circle...who can understand, who can help? And what Im scared most in this life is the sorry feeling of others to me!!!They can soothe me with flowery words but how many among them  are honest?

Maybe people are like me. The surroundings are...swallow (as a new friend, ravenscry, has mentioned) and we find and meet up in here - a virtual world. I cant see anybody feel absolutely happy in this life. The poor people take the burdens of food and money, the rich ones are worried of loneliness and security. Sometimes people even pop up some questions like "Why is my life so peaceful?" Dont ever think its silly. We all have some things to wonder and worry...

Its funny that Im working for a software company where everyday I have to write and convince people to mask their real identity. Nickname.Nickvoice.Nickface. No more scare of being recognized and we can express everything under a fake identity.

What do you think? Is it really necessary to be anonymous?

If i lift up the mask, will you accept me???People may fall in love with me when listening to my voice, reading what Im writing. But what if they see me in realy face, real body? Disappointed? I have said "this is a disordered world, we can speak out what from our real heart and soul but we dont dare to show our face up"

Transparence is impossible, isnt it???

What would you think and do when you know a person (friend, relative or any beloved) got cancer?

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